You have been lied to. You can run away from your problems. I won’t say that solves them, but it can give you a new perspective. Let me tell you why.
February was rough. Really rough. Which is pretty sad since it has all been small stuff. Not feeling well, stress at work, friend drama. Add to those small thing the fact I have felt zero motivation to be creative on any sort of large-scale. If I get a few sketches done during the week, that took all my effort. So what did I do? I shut down. I spent lazy time at home watching television either with my husband or alone. And it is SUPER rare for me to have the television on without actually doing something else. Growing up, if I wanted to hang out while Mom was watching Perry Mason or Diagnosis Murder, I had to be doing something. It’s carried over into my adult life, so if I am actually sitting still and just watching a program, chances are something is wrong. I also skipped get-togethers with friends (sorry B) so I could have alone time. To be fair, that is also to avoid some hurt feelings like I discussed a few weeks ago. At work, I hammered through my work so I could get out for even fifteen minutes to go stand in the stacks at the library. Even though our library is not great, if I can get an aisle alone, I can close my eyes and flash back to my librarian job and I feel calmer right away.
My biggest form of escape this past month has been to let go of all creative pressure. I think Christmas really did a number on me more than I thought. I set my personal goals too high and then…well, I had fn but a few things didn’t work out. So lately, I haven’t been doing any start small projects or forcing my self to get X, Y and Z done. I have been opting to doodle for ten minutes here and there when I felt like it. I spent time sorting through craft supplies so I could share with friends.
Okay, so I didn’t physically run away. But I did manage, in some small ways, to break away from my regular behavior patterns and habits. And I can say this…it helped! I am feeling a bit better every day. The desire to create is taking back over, and I feel really good about it. I know in the past I have talked about taking breaks to recharge, but in this case, I feel like I was taking it forward a step. Instead of going for an afternoon walk, a few weeks so overall lessened pressure in all aspects of my life was just what I needed to get back into shape. Not just a quick cat-nap kind of recharge, but a full rejuvenation, right down to my roots.
You can’t permanently run away, but you can have a mini escape and feel much, much better.